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Today.............

Today has been a tough one for me. I have been to the hospital and made big decisions, spent time in deep conversations with people where I have challenged them, but also been challenged. I have heard heartbreaking news and been told fantastic news. It has been a real mixture of emotions, I have laughed and cried, been serious and stupid. I have been made to question so much.

I went for a fantastic drive, originally I was going to go to Southend, but decided loud music was in order so went driving in country lanes which is honestly really therapeutic. I got home a short time ago and read today's' devotional from a book entitled "Ending you day right" by Joyce Meyer. I was bought the book for my baptism but never really followed it. Today's read:

'Trust in, lean on, rely on, and have confidence in Him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts before Him. God is a refuge for us (a fortress and a high tower). Selah [pause, and calmly think of that]! (Psalm 62:8)

One thing that you can expect to encounter in your journey with God is the trust test. How many times do you say to God, "what is going on in my life? what are You doing? What is happening? I don't understand!" If you are in a place where nothing in your life makes sense, trust God anyway. You are not just to have faith and trust in God once in a while or from time to time, but at all times. You must learn to live from faith to faith, trusting the Lord when things are good and when things are bad. There is no such thing as trusting God without unanswered questions. There are always going to be things you just don't understand.'

Well that put me in my place tonight.....

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