When asked the question "what do you do for enjoyment?" I froze. How ridiculous is that? I know what I enjoy and what I don't, I know who I enjoy spending company with and who I don't; therefore why couldn't I answer the question?
It got me thinking more than I ever realised such a simple question could. So I went to my usual location to think about it - Southend!!! I stood on the beach and just thought, and thought, and thought.
It then occurred to me how funny it is, that you give up so much when you think people think you should. When I fell ill my parents made me believe I needed to give up everything, I am sure that wasn't intentional but that is what happened. So gradually over time I have given up a lot of my 'wild ways', for some of them that's good, but for others it makes me wonder.
Then I realised how easy it is to get yourself into this 'Christian bubble', its so easy to not have any social circles apart from those that involve Christians in one way or another, or those that involve church. However how are we to reach out to the unsaved if we aren't in communication with the unsaved?
So I have spent this evening with old school friends reminiscing, laughing, joking and thoroughly enjoying myself. We have all talked like we left school yesterday and loved each others company, none of them are yet Christians. I think I thought that becoming a Christian meant I had to leave my old life behind and that meant friends as well, but when we become a Christian we leave our old ways behind not the people.
Tonight I have enjoyed myself more than I have in months and that's because I let myself. I was holding myself back from enjoyment; what is holding you back?
It got me thinking more than I ever realised such a simple question could. So I went to my usual location to think about it - Southend!!! I stood on the beach and just thought, and thought, and thought.
It then occurred to me how funny it is, that you give up so much when you think people think you should. When I fell ill my parents made me believe I needed to give up everything, I am sure that wasn't intentional but that is what happened. So gradually over time I have given up a lot of my 'wild ways', for some of them that's good, but for others it makes me wonder.
Then I realised how easy it is to get yourself into this 'Christian bubble', its so easy to not have any social circles apart from those that involve Christians in one way or another, or those that involve church. However how are we to reach out to the unsaved if we aren't in communication with the unsaved?
So I have spent this evening with old school friends reminiscing, laughing, joking and thoroughly enjoying myself. We have all talked like we left school yesterday and loved each others company, none of them are yet Christians. I think I thought that becoming a Christian meant I had to leave my old life behind and that meant friends as well, but when we become a Christian we leave our old ways behind not the people.
Tonight I have enjoyed myself more than I have in months and that's because I let myself. I was holding myself back from enjoyment; what is holding you back?
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