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Loneliness.........

Since I can remember I have had a genuine fear of being alone.

I have struggled at the concept that people can and people do desert and leave you, whether that be through choice or death. Because of this fear, I always felt so lonely! Sounds strange doesn't it.

For a long while I believed if you surrounded yourself with enough people you would never get lonely. This however had the opposite effect on me and the more people I surrounded myself with, the lonelier I felt.

Then in my bizarre train of thoughts I believed that if I segregated myself away from people, it would then not affect me if anyone left, nor would it affect them if I were to leave. However this too made me feel so lonely.

I had a real 'God prompt' just now to look in my journal and trace back a couple of times where I have felt so alone. This scripture then came to me:

"The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." Deuteronomy 31:8

A couple of weeks ago I wrote about my beliefs reading through this again my last belief was that I would never be truly alone.

What a beautiful and encouraging thought. That no matter how alone we feel, no matter how many people have left our side, our heavenly Father, the King of Kings and Lord of Lords is always there. Ready to uphold us and to bring light to that fear of loneliness.

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