Live for each day!!!

A excerpt taken from Organic God by Margaret Feinberg, a truly beautiful book. This challenged me when reading and is continually challenging me everyday. 'I realise how much I need his voice. I need him to speak life and truth into my soul. I need him to illuminate my darkness and expose my sin. I need his words of hope and healing just as I need his words of discipline and correction. Apart from his voice, I will eventually wander my own way far from him. Apart from his voice, I will settle for lesser lovers. Apart from his voice, I cannot fall in love with him all over again.' Surprisingly Talkative pg86

I stumbled over this song by Kari Jobe and it is honestly one of the most beautiful songs I have ever heard. The lyrics speak on so many different levels to me and others I have spoken to about it. The More I seek You The More I find you The more I find you The more I love you I want to sit at you feet drink from the cup in your hands lay back against you and breath feel your heartbeat this love is so deep it's more than I can stand I melt in your peace it's overwhelming

Since I can remember I have had a genuine fear of being alone. I have struggled at the concept that people can and people do desert and leave you, whether that be through choice or death. Because of this fear, I always felt so lonely! Sounds strange doesn't it. For a long while I believed if you surrounded yourself with enough people you would never get lonely. This however had the opposite effect on me and the more people I surrounded myself with, the lonelier I felt. Then in my bizarre train of thoughts I believed that if I segregated myself away from people, it would then not affect me if anyone left, nor would it affect them if I were to leave. However this too made me feel so lonely. I had a real 'God prompt' just now to look in my journal and trace back a couple of times where I have felt so alone. This scripture then came to me: "The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discourage...

The LORD is faithful to all his promises and loving toward all he has made. The LORD upholds all those who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down. The eyes of all look to you, and you give them their food at the proper time. You open your hand and satisfy the desires of every living thing. The LORD is righteous in all his ways and loving toward all he has made. The LORD is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth. He fulfills the desires of those who fear him; he hears their cry and saves them. The LORD watches over all who love him, but all the wicked he will destroy. My mouth will speak in praise of the LORD. Let every creature praise his holy name for ever and ever.

Like most people, before I became a Christian I was not a particularly nice person. I did things and said things I now regret. After I became a Christian I repented of those things and thought it would make everything better. Then a few weeks ago I realised my behaviour then, still had implications on my life as a Christian today. It came to me that I n ot only needed to apologise to God for my wrong actions, but also to the people that I carried out those wrong doings on. This week I have been doing exactly that, I have been saying sorry to those people. That 5 letter word "sorry" is actually one of the most dificult words, this I also didnt realise till this week. I knew God would forgive me as long as I was truly sorry, however with these people I didnt know whether forgiveness would be given. This week didnt completely go my way, nevertheless I know in my heart and spirit I did the right thing. Sorry is one of the hardest words someone can say, however if it is said in th...

'A woman's heart should be so hidden in Christ that a man should have to seek Him first to find her.' When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not shouting 'I'm clean livin'' I'm whispering 'I was lost, Now I'm found and forgiven.' When I say... 'I am a Christian' I don't speak of this with pride. I'm confessing that I stumble and need Christ to be my guide. When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not trying to be strong. I'm professing that I'm weak and need His strength to carry on. When I say.. 'I am a Christian' I'm not bragging of success. I'm admitting I have failed and need God to clean my mess. When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not claiming to be perfect, My flaws are far too visible, but God believes I am worth it. When I say... 'I am a Christian' I still feel the sting of pain.. I have my share of heartaches, so I call upon His name. When I say... 'I...

I went for one of my drives earlier on this evening - it was really spontaneous I just felt this real urge to become free. So I went driving early evening when the sun was setting. It was beautiful, just truly magnificent. The colours were just divine and it made me fall in love again with the world our God has created for us. When I was a child my Grandad Twinkle always used to tell me and my sisters about the sun needing to go to bed because it's so tiring being so bright and shinning all the time. He told us when the sun went to bed, so must we. I was reminded of this childhood story while driving; the memory moved me so much that I had to stop. I pulled over and was surrounded by fields that were being set aglow with the most rich and dazzling colours from the setting sun. This made me realise the true value of what many people have been saying for the last week, rest. I got time to just be still; I managed to rest in God's presence - it was truly mind-blowing. "Be sti...

I was helping out with the youth on Sunday, we have the most amazing group of young people. They are so tuned in and its honestly such a honour to be involved with them this year. We were talking about about 'Why tell others?'. Jon made it clear that if you dont know what you believe you cant really tell others.....makes alot of sense actually!!!! So I am going to give it a try............... I believe God is Father; I believe God as Saviour; I believe God is Sovereign; I believe God will protect and guide me; I believe I will be forgiven, as long as I truly am sorry; I believe Jesus died on the cross so that I may have forgiveness; I believe God is the beginning and the end. the alpha and omega; I believe God is the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords; I believe through Gods strength I can make a difference to other people; I believe that I will never be truly alone.

I have just got home from spending the afternoon with my Aunt who attends Roffey Bible College in Horsham. I attended a conference with her this evening and Pastor Colin Urquhart was preaching - all I can say is WOW!!! He was speaking the exact words I needed to hear. We were looking at Revelation 3:15-21 . Colin spoke about how God hates half-heartedness, He hates compromise, He hates luke-warmness. God hates these things because these things are far less than what He made possible for us, by pouring His love and Spirit in our hearts. In verse 18 it states "I counsel you to buy from me gold refined in the fire, so you can become rich..." How can you become rich in God? To buy gold refined in the fire. The fire causes the impurities to come to the top, the scum is then skimmed off. This process is then repeated to purify you again. God wants you to be on fire, not luke-warm. It is so easy for us to coast along with the Lord. God asks us to buy the gold from Him. Meaning we ca...

I had the most awesome news yesterday and am constantly being taken aback by Gods greatness and unconditional love. His majesty and holiness knock me off my feet constantly and His kindness is just beyond measure. I am also reminded that maybe I can take this all for granted. Maybe I am not always as grateful as I should be for the amazing things He is doing in my life. I know I dont thank God enough. I know that when He deserves praise I can sometimes ignore that or put it off. I need to ensure I give God all the praise and thanks He deserves, for He is a truly amazing God. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 "Be joyful always: pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."

Your righteousness reaches to the skies, O God, you who have done great things. Who, O God, is like you? Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up. You will increase my honour and comfort me once again.

God spoke to me so clearly this morning whilst singing "Open the eyes of my heart Lord" and I am ashamed to say I pushed it aside because I didnt think I could do what He was asking and felt I had submitted everything to Him already - I was wrong! We all know, if God has asked you to do something He wont leave it! So after the service I was approached by a beautiful lady who gave me these verses 'So he answered, "Do not fear, for those who are with us are more than those who are with them." Then Elisha prayed and said, "O LORD, I pray, open his eyes that he may see " And the LORD opened the servant's eyes and he saw;....' 2 Kings 6:16-17 I have always been used to dealing with situations on my own - usually through my own choice. I have never shared. This has sometimes meant I have lost trust or wobbled and stumbled. I need to learn not to lean on my own understanding but on Gods. I need to open my eyes.....properly!

This is a crazy world These can be lonely times It's hard to know who's on your side Most of the time Who can you really trust Who do you really know Is there anybody out there Who can make you feel less alone Some times you just can't make it on your own If you need a place where you can run If you need a shoulder to cry on I'll always be your friend When you need some shelter from the rain When you need a healer for your pain I will be there time and time again When you need someone to love you Here I am If you have broken dreams Just lay them all on me I'll be the one who understands So take my hand If you reach emptyness You know I'll do my best To fill you up with all the love That I can show someone I promise you you'll never walk alone Well if you need a place where you can run If you need a shoulder to cry on I'll always be your friend When you need some shelter from the rain When you need a healer for your pain I will be there time and time agai...

Isn't it funny how you remember some dates and not others? Here are some examples, I can remember the exact date I sang my first solo - 24th December 1993 at 6:45pm! I can remember the exact date I became a Christian - 28th July 2005 at 3:30am! I can remember the exact date I passed my driving test 16th January 2006 I met up with an old friend tonight; we were supposed to go to the cinema to watch some trashy chick flick!!! Instead we talked and talked and talked. Reminiscing on all the good things that we shared, all the adventures we used to have and why that crumbled resulting in us not speaking for a while. Both of us could remember exact dates and that really struck me. On Thursday it would have been my Nan's birthday, this date has stuck in my head for years, the last day of January. Yet ask me when my Dads birthday is and I struggle! I have to really think and work out whether it's the 11th or 12th July (it's the 11th just in case you're interested!!!). Not r...

I have just arrived home. I left a meeting at 11pm and started to drive home, and well, just didn’t stop! I love driving. I love the freedom you have, the independence, the clarity you can get. I regularly go driving when I am troubled or struggling or scared or just need time out. Its an amazing way to either stick on your best worship CD and praise God, or to just drive in silence, watching the world whirl past you whilst you pray. Its actually quite amazing how beautiful the world is late at night. The stars gleam down from the backdrop of the dark black sky. The thundering tires on the tarmac below. Also the quiet world, whizzing beside you. Well, all I can say is 2hours and 85 miles later my head is clearer and my soul lighter. Why don’t you give it a try?