Live for each day!!!

I have been without Internet for quite a while (as you may have noticed!!) I have found it more difficult than I would've thought!! It is so funny to think you can get so used to having something around you take it for granted, until you no longer have it!!! I found this with lots of things. I haven't been able to go to a Sunday service for a couple of weeks and have thoroughly missed worshipping and the fellowship I receive at my church. I have missed my church family just as much as my home family and friends. On the other hand I have loved the opportunities God has opened up to me to witness and share my faith with non-Christians, especially in a hospital environment. I have loved the responses that have been given when telling others I am a Christian, the good and the bad. All have them are teaching me who I want to be in Christ and helping me grow into the person that I want to be.

Over the last couple of days I have struggled. Tonight I have once again come to the conclusion that it is fine to struggle, every Christian struggles and what I need to do now is cling onto God's promises and faithfulness. When in hospital this week a wonderful friend gave me some different copies of Psalm 23. This Psalm has meant so much to me for as long as I can remember, dating back to even before I was a Christian. The song makes me cry every time; and the scripture stirs so much within me every time I read it. Then when reading a book today entitled 'Pieces of Glass' by Sarah Kay it mentioned some things on this scripture. It says how God has never promised that we will not face evil or death, God never said we would have an easy ride, actually this psalm verifies the inevitability of the trouble we will indeed face. Nevertheless the verses on death and suffering are not the final chapter of verse of this psalm nor our experiences. "See death is tucked between t...

Ok, I cant sleep and cant say I am impressed by it. I have a busy day tomorrow so really need my sleep - but whatever I do is not helping. I have gone for a drive, sat by the sea, walked along the front, counted sheep you name it I have done it!!! So I de cided to sort out my IPod. It has so much rubbish on and thought it would be good to get some new stuff on it for the holiday period. Sorting through my Cd's and found one I received a while ago by Vicky Beeching called 'Yesterday, today and forever' it is awesome. I stumbled across this song called 'Search Me' . The Lyrics are as followed: Search me Oh God Search me and find Any way in me that does not reflect Your purity Refine me Oh God In the fire of Your gaze That I might be holy in all of my ways Take me deeper Lord Draw me closer Lord… Give me a heart after Your own heart Give me a mind that is pure and pleasing to You Fill me with love With Your power and Your joy That this world might see You in me They ...

"Those who believe that they believe in God, but without passion in their hearts, without anguish in their mind, without uncertainty, without doubt, without an element of despair even in their consolation, believe only in the God idea, not God Himself." Miguel de Unamuno

This song was forwarded to me by a close friend and colleague. It is stunning, it is powerful and it is challenging. When the road is rough and steep And it leads a heart to weep There's an ocean of tears That you've held through the years But we're not stopping here On this long and winding street Will You guide these weary feet Every step that we take With our hearts full of faith And we're not stopping here Together we are stronger So put your hand in mine We give You praise We give You praise And the King of all the earth Has saved us from ourselves We give You praise We give You praise Through the avenues of time Here You meet me where I am We walked with glory and pain And You’ve broken the chains So there’s no stopping here Glory, we sing glory We sing glory In the darkness where You shine Let it shine, let it shine We Give You Praise - Delirious

I have just read this in an article, it comes from an interview with Trisha Goddard on her fight with breast cancer. It just struck me in its honesty, so thought I would share it. "As my illness has taught me well, one of the most useful things we can teach ourselves and our children is that there's no such word as 'can't' because dogged, planned determination will always surprise you by showing you how much you can."

Be careful little eyes what you see It's the second glance that ties your hands as darkness pulls the strings Be careful little feet where you go For it's the little feet behind you that are sure to follow It's a slow fade when you give yourself away It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid When you give yourself away People never crumble in a day It's a slow fade, it's a slow fade Be careful little ears what you hear When flattery leads to compromise, the end is always near Be careful little lips what you say For empty words and promises lead broken hearts astray It's a slow fade when you give yourself away It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid When you give yourself away People never crumble in a day The journey from your mind to your hands Is shorter than you're thinking Be careful if you think you st...