Live for each day!!!

A excerpt taken from Organic God by Margaret Feinberg, a truly beautiful book. This challenged me when reading and is continually challenging me everyday. 'I realise how much I need his voice. I need him to speak life and truth into my soul. I need him to illuminate my darkness and expose my sin. I need his words of hope and healing just as I need his words of discipline and correction. Apart from his voice, I will eventually wander my own way far from him. Apart from his voice, I will settle for lesser lovers. Apart from his voice, I cannot fall in love with him all over again.' Surprisingly Talkative pg86

I stumbled over this song by Kari Jobe and it is honestly one of the most beautiful songs I have ever heard. The lyrics speak on so many different levels to me and others I have spoken to about it. The More I seek You The More I find you The more I find you The more I love you I want to sit at you feet drink from the cup in your hands lay back against you and breath feel your heartbeat this love is so deep it's more than I can stand I melt in your peace it's overwhelming

Since I can remember I have had a genuine fear of being alone. I have struggled at the concept that people can and people do desert and leave you, whether that be through choice or death. Because of this fear, I always felt so lonely! Sounds strange doesn't it. For a long while I believed if you surrounded yourself with enough people you would never get lonely. This however had the opposite effect on me and the more people I surrounded myself with, the lonelier I felt. Then in my bizarre train of thoughts I believed that if I segregated myself away from people, it would then not affect me if anyone left, nor would it affect them if I were to leave. However this too made me feel so lonely. I had a real 'God prompt' just now to look in my journal and trace back a couple of times where I have felt so alone. This scripture then came to me: "The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discourage...

The LORD is faithful to all his promises and loving toward all he has made. The LORD upholds all those who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down. The eyes of all look to you, and you give them their food at the proper time. You open your hand and satisfy the desires of every living thing. The LORD is righteous in all his ways and loving toward all he has made. The LORD is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth. He fulfills the desires of those who fear him; he hears their cry and saves them. The LORD watches over all who love him, but all the wicked he will destroy. My mouth will speak in praise of the LORD. Let every creature praise his holy name for ever and ever.

Like most people, before I became a Christian I was not a particularly nice person. I did things and said things I now regret. After I became a Christian I repented of those things and thought it would make everything better. Then a few weeks ago I realised my behaviour then, still had implications on my life as a Christian today. It came to me that I n ot only needed to apologise to God for my wrong actions, but also to the people that I carried out those wrong doings on. This week I have been doing exactly that, I have been saying sorry to those people. That 5 letter word "sorry" is actually one of the most dificult words, this I also didnt realise till this week. I knew God would forgive me as long as I was truly sorry, however with these people I didnt know whether forgiveness would be given. This week didnt completely go my way, nevertheless I know in my heart and spirit I did the right thing. Sorry is one of the hardest words someone can say, however if it is said in th...

'A woman's heart should be so hidden in Christ that a man should have to seek Him first to find her.' When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not shouting 'I'm clean livin'' I'm whispering 'I was lost, Now I'm found and forgiven.' When I say... 'I am a Christian' I don't speak of this with pride. I'm confessing that I stumble and need Christ to be my guide. When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not trying to be strong. I'm professing that I'm weak and need His strength to carry on. When I say.. 'I am a Christian' I'm not bragging of success. I'm admitting I have failed and need God to clean my mess. When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not claiming to be perfect, My flaws are far too visible, but God believes I am worth it. When I say... 'I am a Christian' I still feel the sting of pain.. I have my share of heartaches, so I call upon His name. When I say... 'I...

I went for one of my drives earlier on this evening - it was really spontaneous I just felt this real urge to become free. So I went driving early evening when the sun was setting. It was beautiful, just truly magnificent. The colours were just divine and it made me fall in love again with the world our God has created for us. When I was a child my Grandad Twinkle always used to tell me and my sisters about the sun needing to go to bed because it's so tiring being so bright and shinning all the time. He told us when the sun went to bed, so must we. I was reminded of this childhood story while driving; the memory moved me so much that I had to stop. I pulled over and was surrounded by fields that were being set aglow with the most rich and dazzling colours from the setting sun. This made me realise the true value of what many people have been saying for the last week, rest. I got time to just be still; I managed to rest in God's presence - it was truly mind-blowing. "Be sti...